Life's a roller coaster and I'm not strapped in.....

Monday, June 25, 2007

An Answered Prayer

My last memory with my Daddy: I had gone to visit him at the hotel he was staying at in Perry the evening after my younger brother graduated from high school. I was extremely frustrated because I had been talking with a guy who had blown me off (the story of my life at this point in time) so, being all pissed off, I was ditching Perry and going back to Athens to escape the agony of being dumped again. Of course, I had to stop by and say goodbye to Daddy because I didn't know when I'd see him again (ironic, huh?), and, of course, my Daddy could read me like a book and knew that something was wrong. So, being the good Daddy he was, he sat me down, made me fess up to him, and tried to make sense out of my frustration. I'll never forget that night. I was in tears, and my Daddy laid his hands on me and prayed that God would help guide my heart in accordance with His plan for me, and that one day, I would find a man who would love me the way I deserved to be loved. Then I gave my Daddy one last hug and drove away with him in my rear view mirror.

I've often acknowledged how much I truly cherish the last memory I had with my Daddy. We got to have one final moment, and God was there blessing it. Now, my last memory has even more meaning because I can reflect on that moment and know that God answered my Daddy's last prayer for me. He gave me Enon.

It's so easy to say that you've found the one when you're in the "honeymoon" stage of your relationship, especially after you've been single for as long as I had prior to. But how do you really know?? Of course there's no guaranteed sign, but I have plenty of things that I choose to think of as God hinting to me:

1. My brother, Dean, keeps asking me when the wedding date is so he can put it in his PDA. This is HUGE because Dean is a great judge of character, and he's not going to give his approval out to anyone, no matter how happy they make me. Plus, he's doing Dad's job, and I think it goes without saying that he takes his job very seriously...
2. My mom hugs Enon when we go to Perry, and she tells him to come back soon whenever he leaves. Nuff said...
3. William automatically replaces me with Enon as his wingman in Uno...such crap! Pretty sure Wiliam might like Enon more than he likes me!
4. Staisha, even if she was slightly inebriated, professed her undying love for Enon as my bf. She pretty much hated all the other ones anyway, and she's always been pretty protective...

and lastly:
5. Kit, who has taken it upon himself to take care of me since I was the cute little freshman that I was, has told me that he hopes I marry the guy. Plus Jojo's approval is nice to have too...

So, wow...Enon has won over the masses! But let's not get ahead of ourselves here. Now, I will say that I have a newfound appreciation for those people who find it easy to rush into marriage. I mean, once you've found "The One" it's easy to want it all, and it's definitely harder to find patience to wait until the time is right, but we have other priorities to work out before we can make any decisions about the future.

That doesn't mean that there aren't days that I want to actually answer Dean's question, and I do feel very blessed to have found Enon. He's more than I could have ever imagined, and I love him in a way I never knew existed! It's just so special that Enon gets to be the answer to my Daddy's last prayer. Through God, they are bound together, and I just don't think that there's a more positive sign than that...

Love you guys...thanks for stopping by!

"But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you.
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new.
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life, I love you more.
~Beatles "In My Life"